I briefly mentioned it on here before, but my #1 insecurity about myself is not my weight, but it is my height. Weight is something I knew I could always have control over, but there is no way to make myself shorter.
I’m 5’9.5 and suffer from a bit of a Jessie Spano complex (Jessie on Saved by the Bell was set up on a blind date with a guy a he was sitting when she met him, after their date they stand up and she is like 6 inches taller than him, later that night she dreams that she keeps growing taller and taller).
Like I said I RARELY wear heels, I often made excuses that I couldn’t walk in them (not true). Yes, some of my heel concern stems from the fact that most guys are too damn short. Seriously where are all the 6’3 and 6’4 guys??? However, this weekend when I wore heels to further show off my legs (thanks to all my running) in shorts and a skirt, it made me realize that part of the reason I didn’t want to wear heels was because I already felt huge with my weight and being tall didn’t help. I feel like heavier short girls look cuter, while I just look liked a linebacker (I’ve never been short, so I have no idea how you folks feel in relation to taller heavy folks and I’m sure there are varying opinions).
I just think tall people get noticed easier and I guess I was just trying to blend in and not have my body make my stand out (my loud personality is another story/defense mechanism).
As I’m losing weight and getting more secure in my body I don’t think I mind being noticed as much and I can start wearing heels proudly.
Seriously though if you guys knew me in real life and my crazy height complex you would see what a major breakthrough this is.