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Scary and Sad

I’ve been poking around tumblr for other fitblrs to follow and I keep finding anorexic type blogs. Like blogs that scare and upset me. Blogs that feature pictures of these girls that look like skeletons. It hurts my heart and my soul that this is what some people are striving for. I have viewed tumblr and all of you as great support and strength for me us to do great things and get fit/healthy together. I worry that some people will use this as a forum of support from others with their same illness and continue this cycle of self harm.

I can’t look at pictures of sickly girls in my dashboard, so I’m sorry, but if you are going to post them, I’m going to unfollow you. There is a difference between thin/fit/toned and bones/rail thin. I can’t support or be inpsired by those striving for the latter.

I’m sorry if this posts upsets any of you, but I need to keep myself strong and motivated. You’ve got your goals and I’ve got mine.

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I’m watching Step Up and hot damn I forgot about what a god Channing Tatum is. Lord I wish I could dance. Just watching the boy move ::drool:: 

I’ve never been a dancer, but maybe the thinner version of myself can be a little quicker and lighter on my feet. We shall see.

Confession

Somehow I’ve gone over 100 posts without really talking about one of my main work out motivators. He’s even more than a work out motivator, he’s a life motivator for me.

David Cook – yes the guy who won season 7 of American Idol, but he’s so much more than that.

Seriously that man has been my rock even though he doesn’t know it.

My dad passed away suddenly after gastric bypass surgery in November 2007. I was lost. I was mostly in shock the first few months. By February 2008 I was in a downward spiral. One day in late February 2008 my mom called and told me to check out this “fixer-upper” type guy with a gorgeous mouth on American Idol. I had nothing else to do, so I watched it and first saw and heard David. I was hooked. Waiting for American Idol to come on got me through each week during some of my darkest days. It’s weird to say, but true – David saved me in his own way.

I love David’s music and love running to it. His old band’s cover of “Creep” a song I only sorta knew really has become my anthem – again particularly the lyrics “I don’t care if it hurts. I wanna have control. I want a perfect body. I want a perfect soul.” Every running mix I make has that song on it.

And I have Dave to thank for me taking up running. In January I know I wanted to get healthy and fit, but I didn’t exactly know how I was going to do it. Then I looked into running in a 5K for Cancer Research that he supports and runs in (Dave actually got in shape training for the race as well and now he runs regularly too). So I spent Jan-May focused on that 5K. I’m a better runner because of it. Now I know to challenge myself with a race is the way to train.

I’m SO not normally a “fangirl” – but it’s more than that. It’s weird I can’t explain it. I just want to be like best friends (or girlfriend whatev) with Dave and then later in life let him know just how much he’s helped me.

I’ll try and keep my Dave posts to a minimum, but I feel like it’s important to share that with all of you!

I tried to pick a favorite picture of him, but I can’t decide there are too many to choose from. However I feel like this picture sums up how I feel about him.

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Get it Girl

Hot damn. So I came home and watch tv until the sun started to set – regardless it was still 84 degrees at 6:30pm. I looked up a 4 mile route and told myself to just pace myself. I ALWAYS run too fast as soon as I get moving, so I wanted to keep a steady pace all the way – no or verrrry little walking. I looked when I hit mile 1 and I was a little over 13 minutes (yuck, but I know a lot that was up hill) onto mile 2ish and I was at 24ish minutes (a lot of that was flat and I was in a good groove). then I got around to mile 3ish and was at 36ish minutes – okay. Then my ipod/stop watch died (FYI I let a fellow fitblr know that under “extras” on your ipod stopwatch is an option). I ran the last mile with no music (yuck I hate that…I think that’s another reason why am AM orientation run on Monday was only okay). 

I ended up doing the run in under 52 minutes. When I went to map out my run I realized instead of a 4 mile run, I did a 4.3 mile run. So that means my average pace was just under 12 MINUTES A MILE!!!! Crazy. I know I can do 10/11 minute miles in spurts and I am thrilled with that time for such a long (for me) run. It also makes me really feel confident about my 10K – at this point I want it to be under an 75 minutes/under 1 hour 15 minutes. However I’d REALLY like it under 70 minutes/1 hour 10 minutes.

I wish I had my exact time for this run, but I know it was definitely no more than 52 minutes based on looking at the clock before I left/got home and the clock on campus I passed around the halfway point.

I had a water bottle with me which was good, I drank a bottle before my run, so I wasn’t dying for it while I ran, but I did drink from it it spurts throughout. I did 3+miles without walking at all, the last 2/3 of a mile I took 2 quick walk breaks (again a danger of no music – it’s harder for me to walk when there is music… therefore easier to walk when there isn’t). 

I was pretty sweaty (so much so that even after a fairly cold show I was still sweating for a few minutes until my body cooled itself enough). My breathing was good for the run and the humidity wasn’t bad at all.  I’m just trying to prep as best as possible for 8am on July 4th in Nashville – who knows what kind of weather it will be and I don’t want the weather to take a major toll on my performance.

God that was a good run. I feel so alive!

Dag Nabet Bob Saget

Instead of God damnit one of my students always said dag nabet bob saget and that’s exactly what popped into my head as I opened my gym bag to change at work and saw I forgot to pack my sports bras (yes I wear two). The old me would have skipped a workout, but instead I’m gonna go home get my bras and do my 4 mile run outside as per my half marathon training and then do some crunches at home.

WIW

This week: 199.4

Last week 198.4

I still have an “1” infront and I’m okay with that. This week with my period and back to back orientation sessions it was crazy, but now the next week is slow at work and I plan on kicking ass and taking names at the gym!

Also one of my besties is coming to Nashville for the 4th of July and I *think* she’s going to run the 5K while I do the 10K. She doesn’t think she’s ready, but I know she has it in her!

On a brighter note this little product that I found at Publix has made my week!

I love water, but I prefer it with lemon. Well I hate buying/cutting lemon and dealing with sticky juice at home. Well I found this. It’s real crystallized lemon, it’s so light and refreshing and 0 calories! I find Crystal Light to be too thick (I always double the water recommended on Crystal Light). I saw online that True Lemon makes True Lime (which I saw at Publix) and True Orange (I.MUST.FIND.IT). The package comes in 32 little packs for the same price as like 12 Crystal Light to-go packets. I highly recommend it…I’ve been drinking even more water than usual thanks to it!