I’m worried that I’m gaining boyfriend weight. Losing these last 20 pounds is very important to me, but even more than weight loss/gain is keeping on top of my running.
For the past 6 months I have been eating, breathing and sleeping RUNNING.
Running has been the most important thing in my life. Running has made me very happy. Don’t get me wrong running still makes me very happy, but Wiley makes me even happier. However I am so wrapped up in him and it’s taken a toll on my sleeping, eating, and running schedules.
Dealing with Christmas, cold weather and lack of daylight hours to run in were all things that I anticipated derailing me at times, but I wasn’t prepared to be blindsided by a boyfriend. Yes this is all new and exciting, but I need to focus and regain control.
This past week of marathon training needs a “do over” (confession I only ran 6 miles instead of 11 on Saturday and feel like such a failure). My only saving grace is that I built in a few extra training weeks, but I’m THISCLOSE to officially registering for Los Angeles. I’m scared about running a full, but I know I should trust the training. However I need to fucking TRAIN. I need to re-commit to running first and foremost.
I’m asking you guys to also help keep me accountable. I’ve been “too quiet” on here lately and it’s because I’m not working as hard as I should be.
And before you ask, yes I have somewhat talked to W about all this, but it really hit me today and I need to be clear with him about my priorities.
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