Tum Tum

Anyone remember Tum Tum from that 90s movie 3 ninjas? I was more of a rocky girl myself.

ANYWAY

My stomach is looking good these days. It’s flatter than it’s been in a loooooong time. It still needs work, but I’m quite pleased. I even see some definition lines which I love. I’m so thrilled to be getting back into the shape I was in last Oct/Nov and April (pre-half marathons are when I’m at my fittest). I’m looking forward to getting even fitter, hitting my goal weight and MARATHON TRAIN. Los Angeles is 5 months from today!

“You look fantastic”

I saw this guy on Friday – Mr. Navy Lawyer. He e-mailed 10 days ago saying he was going to be in town for the (football) game. When I first got his e-mail it was a few days after Wiley and I broke up. My first thought was…DID ALL THE GUYS FROM MY PAST GET SOME SIGNAL FROM A BEACON SAYING I WAS SINGLE??? I hadn’t really talked to Mr. Navy Lawyer since last year. Which is normal. He comes for a game every year and that’s generally when we just flirt and hang out.

I was having all kinds of thoughts. Part of me didn’t want to see him because I feel sad and broken after the breakup, but part of me thought some flirting and male attention would be a good thing. 

I saw him Friday night. He was in town with an old roommate, so that meant I got to flirt with TWO guys at once…my favorite! Seriously though I had a blast hanging out with them, good conversations, laughter and they refused to let me buy any drinks. Mr. Navy Lawyer kept saying “you look fantastic.” We also ran into a mutual friend of ours that that I hadn’t seen in a while and the mutual friend also said how “fantastic” I looked (while his wife was standing next to him haha). 

I should mention when I first got to the bar Mr. Navy Lawyer practically sat on top of me instead of next to me, with his leg gratuitously placed against mine. But that’s the extent of the touching aside from a hello and goodbye hug. There were some flirtatious texts exchanged after we parted ways that he initiated: “Fantastic to see you tonight. Wish it were more often.” then after a few texts back and forth “I’d love to see you tomorrow. 🙂 I’d love even more for you to visit me in VA Beach.” I appreciate how bold he is at times, but despite our chemistry I’m pretty sure the ship has sailed on us in terms of timing which is fine.  I had told him I was unavailable on Saturday (which was a LIE…I gave myself a mani/pedi and caught up on TiVo, etc.), but I knew just being casual and flirty a second day in a row would have been a challenge because he’s hard to resist. Plus, I am still nursing a broken heart and I don’t think a rebound hookup with someone I used to have feelings for would have been a good idea. 

I guess to point of the story was that I got a nice ego boost that added fuel to my fire to continue to heal and eventually get back out into the dating scene. 

PRODUCTIVE DAY

  • Slept for 10 hours
  • Went to church, today was very thought provoking
  • Had a fantastic lunch with a former student
  • Worked on 2 updated versions of my resume and applied for some jobs while sitting outside a cafe on a beautiful afternoon
  • Ran 9 amazing miles without any walking breaks
  • Caught up with some friends on the phone
  • Now currently watching Tough Love: Miami and writing a post about my Friday night that I’ll share tomorrow!

It’s Time To Let Go

Another fabulous piece from Thought Catalog that can be related to a multitude of situations.

It’s time to Let Go. I know: it’s scary right? I’m about to Let Go too, so let’s just do it together and maybe the whole process will be easier on us both. No, no, you can’t stay, it really is time to walk away — you’ve been holding on for too long now, and so have I. I know it’s simpler this way — just, shhhh, OK, listen to me — great now I lost my train of thought…
What I’m trying to say is that whatever you’re holding on to is holding you back, and it’s come to the point where you can’t hold on any longer. You’re like the picture of that adorable kitten on the string saying “hang in there!” except that you’ve been hanging for so long your paws are bloodied and gravity has dislocated your arm sockets. You’re a rag doll, a limp and impotent version of what you need to be, so quit your bitching and release your claws. It’s time to fall, whether you’re ready or not.

It’s time to be a grown up (what an awful concept). It doesn’t mean all the stale things you think though, like wearing cravats and only having one glass of wine over dinner. It just means you have to Let Go of a few things. You have to Let Go of the baggage you’ve been carrying around since high school. Sure you have your insecurities, we all do, but it’s time to put them down in a place where they can’t hurt you anymore.

You have to Let Go of all the childish things you see in the world, and start understanding limitlessness for real. Let Go of your anger, and all the stored up rage inside you (just let it rip if you want, scream and break things, but be sure to let it all go). Let go of the detritus of all your failures and of all those who have failed you. Let Go of your adopted cynicism because maybe being a grown up is really just about accepting that the magic has been there all along, and you’ve just been too immature to let it happen to you.

It’s time to be less afraid, because all those broken hearts only amount to as much as you allow them to. If you don’t Let Go of them now, let them fall to the ground and actually shatter the way they were supposed to before you so greedily scooped them back up and held them to your chest, you might miss out on love. So drop it now — your mistrustfulness, your obsessive, unhealthy relationship with your wounds — yes, it really is time to Let Go.

It’s time to fall — yeah OK, when you Let Go, you’re going to fall. I’m not going to lie; it’s probably going to hurt like a mofo. If it makes you feel better I can go first, and I’ll wait at the bottom to catch you. Because we’re doing this together remember? We’re going to Let Go because holding on to this wire is cutting lines through our palms and if we hang here too long they’ll scar and every time we look down at our hands we’ll remember we’re just prisoners.

So, here we go. On the count of three… One… Two… Ready?… Three. LET GO. Now we’re falling, and all the things we kept wrapped around us, all the spikey, nasty, ugly things that we thought made us safe for so long are just specks in the sky, becoming smaller as we fly away.

By 

KAT GEORGE

Yay Legs

Ran my 5 miles today in 54:54.  It was the best my legs have felt in a really long time. Yesterday I squeezed in a 3 mile run between work commitments. I ran a new route and explored some new neighborhoods (after nearly 2 years of running the same routes). I’m excited for more exploration this weekend on my 9 miler.