Introspective

Since my dash has been rather quiet (I blame spring break – are that many of you college students? I may poll this when you all get back. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE college students – I’ve made a career out of working at a college with you, but it’s weird I’d never in a million years go into graphic detail about my fitness and body with them like I do with you all).

Anyway I was reading through my archive and came across these gems:

·   I have yet to hit my 10 miles a week yet…I also need to hit more 4 day work out weeks, as opposed to 3 day work out weeks – even thought 3 days is better than 0 days. However my spare tire of a stomach isn’t gonna just fall off by itself. (February 9, 2010)

·   Even my jeans are getting big and I’m not a belt wearer, but I may have to be. It’s exciting to start to say goodbye to “fat pants” and hello to “less fat pants.” (March 19, 2010)

·   I just tweeted that “I’m gonna make the track my bitch this afternoon.” I talk a big game, but I think I’ll still end up getting bitch slapped by the track today. (April 16, 2010)

I did find this from one of my first entries to be interesting:

·         Let’s just say I’m about 10 pounds heavier than I normally am or 25 pounds heavier than when I last felt “good about myself” or 50 pounds from what I’d consider my perfect weight (which would make me a size 10 pants or M shirt, but I’m more than okay with that. I’m 5’9 and have a decent frame so I have no plans to ever be a single digit in pants). (January 11, 2010)

I’m nearly down 50 pounds from when I wrote this. I feel great, I don’t feel perfect, but I feel great. I’m proud to be the weight I am at, but I honestly think I was too afraid to admit that at that time I really needed to lost 65-70 pounds. When it’s all said and done (weight loss wise, not work wise because the work never stops) it will be crazy to think I HAD 65-70 pounds to lose, but I did. I have ~25 to go. I’m not shy to admit it anymore. And I also do believe that I am totally capable of wearing single digit pants – my frame isn’t as big as I thought – it was the fat on it that was the problem.

My original weight loss blog was on blogger just for me and in May 2010 I joined the FITBLR community. This community has become a second home, but at first it was a bitter pill to swallow at times:

·         I’m still not sure if reading other fitblrs is inspiring or depressing. I have been eating better and working out more than I ever have and my weight is SLOOOOOOWLY coming off. I’ve been at it since January and am only down 22 pounds. I see many of you who started weeks or months after me and have shed more than me….Sometimes it’s hard to be happy when all of you are reaching your goals faster than me, but mark my words fast or slow I’m gonna reach mine too! (May, 20, 2010)