I can’t

My relationship with my boss is toxic – I just had yet another gritted teeth confrontation with her (which I initiated) that according to my Fitbit spiked my blood pressure 30 points. 

So many surveys say that people leave jobs due to their supervisors (in this case she’s a Dean) and she is certainly top of the list (even above long hours and a joke of a salary). She is single handedly making me reconsider staying in higher education altogether. 

I’ve recently been losing sleep over my growing frustrations with her. Last night I was up between 3-6am. A few weeks back I wasn’t able to fall asleep until 4am two night in a row. 

In the middle of the night I keep notes in my phone trying to get my concerns out of my head. I hate that I feel like a broken record to T and those close to me about work. 

The DC Metro search for something “higher education adjacent” in the private sector is on. If you know of any good companies please send me your recommendations. For the sake of self preservation I need to end this toxic relationship this summer.