This cycle is so true! Each really feeds into one another. Even just 2 weeks ago I was in a funk due to work demands which interfered with exercise and eating well, which then made me talk super negatively to myself and therefore I felt terrible. Thankfully I’m back to this cycle and hoping I don’t get derailed for a while!
I am SO glad my busy season of work is over, running an all out sprint basically from June 1 to Sept 1 is exhausting on many levels. This week has been the first week since my brief reprieve in July when I’ve been able to wake up an hour early and have that hour for ME.
*I preset my coffee maker so I can wake up to coffee and grab a cup first thing (well after chugging a glass of water to get my system going)
*Read for 10-15 minutes
*Review/update my schedule for the day/week
*Write/review goals for the week/day
*Usually try to take an action step towards at least one of the goals
*Catch up social media and post on here
*Categorize blog posts on my tumblr (I’ve been tagging all 3,100 posts into categories working from now back, I’m currently in Fall 2011 and need to get to be beginning which was January 2010).
Then before I know it my alarm is going off to remind me to get ready for work, grab my breakfast and lunch for the day and head out the door. It’s my own version of a goddess/diva hour and I can’t recommend taking an hour for yourself to start your day enough!
I am far too verbose for 59 seconds, but thought I’d share a quick video check in about the comfort of real talk. I’m so fortunate to have a number of outlets and gabbing with friends over lunch is a favorite. Find your people both in real life and in corners of the internet, empathy is powerful stuff…
This month has been an absolute rollercoaster in every way imaginable from great to terrible and it’s reflected on the scale.
I learned that binging is a bigger issue in my life that I thought when I’m feel stressed or out of control. I binge on work and food – sometimes together, but not always.
I often “punish” myself – I’ve learned that my workaholism that I’m in recovery for is a way that I “punish” myself for not accomplishing as much as I wanted to in a day (it especially have reared it’s ugly head when my team is understaffed and I try to overcompensate and overfunction to try and make up for being understaffed.
With food when I’m feeling out of control then I really act out and “punish” myself through binge eating. If I feel a little bit broken I tend to “self harm” through workaholism or food until I’m truly shattered.
Over the last year through ACA and therapy I’ve become more away of my workaholism and need to set boundaries. I am only now recognizing this pattern through food. Recognizing there pattern is half the battle, but there is still work to be done. I’m excited as of this week be in my “quiet” season at work, but I plan to continue to do the work I myself because I don’t want another peak season of work or life to happen and derail me.
This week’s podcast from my man @cscdanmason was just what I needed to hear tonight, especially since I ugly cried at both Dan and my therapist today.
My trauma manifests as shame. Deep seated feelings of unworthiness, being a fraud, not belonging, etc. However in the case of trauma misery loves company and when I can share my story to others who can empathize I heal and research says they heal some too. I’m still trying to figure out how to use Measuring Life to connect and build community, but that’s really what I desire more than anything. Thanks for listening.
#trauma #recoveryjourney #healingjourney #selfcare #shame
I am committing to stop putting myself last. I do it at work, at home, and everywhere in between. It is not noble, it is unhealthy and unfulfilling. I had become blind to my overfunctioning personality and only now through coaching, therapy, ACA, and other trauma work am I learning how to recognize my patterns and make a change. This is hard work, but I’m worth it and my livelihood is worth it.
This is a picture of me right now. Seriously.
I want to share the good and the bad here. I’ve put on 10 lbs since 7/27 and almost left Body Combat in the middle of class because I could FEEL those 10 lbs jiggling on my body making everything seem so much harder. I finished out the class and I’m glad I did. Thankfully my busiest season of work officially wraps up on Friday after an especially grueling Sun-Tues this week.
I know I will get back in the groove now that vacation, Birthday, and final push of a busy work season are behind me, but I still feel like a failure. Like I caught a beautiful butterfly that I lost time and time again and swore I wouldn’t let it getaway, but then I did. I know weight loss and fitness is a series of falling down and getting back up. I’m just wallowing in the moment and I thought it was important to share my human imperfection because it’s real.
#failure #human #weightlossjourney #fitnessjourney #real #recovery #selfcare #balance #alignment
Tonight I’m at a Darius Rucker and Lady Antebellum concert, Saturday I’m going to see Hanson (yes mmmbop Hanson). Concerts and musical theatre light me up like nothing else.
Music truly shakes my soul alive. Tonight I’m feeling so alive and blissful!
#selfcare #passion #authenticself #liveoutloud
My birthday month has arrived! In fact my birthday is Saturday! I am 100% a Leo, for better or worse. As part of this Measuring Life journey I am tapping into who I really am to fully live an authentic life.
#findyourpurpose #selfdiscovery #selfcare #authentic #leo
Last day of vacation, soaking in the ocean sights and smells on a long walk this morning…
#selfcare #relax #reconnect #friends #soundmindsoundbody (at York Beach, Maine)