On the upswing

I needed to blog out some self pity yesterday which did help. Now onto better happenings:

Yesterday I went to lunch time yoga at work and we focused on FEET! Lots of foot stretches that felt great.
After work I ended up walking to the gym (.75 miles) going to body pump and walking back. I had hoped to run there and back, but my heel just wasn’t having it.
Today I’m working from home so couch snuggles with Fred is always good for my mental health.
My first Blue Apron box is arrives today, I’m quite excited.
Finally after my work related cry to help earlier this month, I got the motivation from friends (IRL and here) to apply for some DC jobs in the private sector. I got some great company recommendations and applied to 12 jobs at a few companies. I got one follow up courtesy call since I was referred internally, I only got one automatic rejection, AND I got a request to phone interview for a job later this week. I’m feeling excited!

Pain in the foot

I missed all 100 of my push ups yesterday – I kept pushing them off yesterday due to foot/heel pain and I was cozy in bed after taking a tylenol PM before I remember that I never did them. We’ll see how today goes.

This brings me to my foot/feet. Last Monday I was back to the podiatrist for another cortisone shot for my PF (on my right foot). But also to talk about some pain on my OTHER (left) foot – on the top by my little toes.

He believes the issue on my left foot may be a result of over compensating. He diagnosed me as having Morton’s Neuroma and Capsulitis Tendinitis. He gave me an oral steroid (which I have opted to not take just yet) since that inflammation has calmed down significantly, however the cortisone shot which worked like a charm in January and still not eliminated my heel pain. I haven’t run at all since last Sunday, but this weekend I was gardening as part of a community service project and then was jumping around at a concert – which has left my right heel in agony. I iced it last night, but my walk to my office from the parking deck (.20 miles) was really painful this morning.

I have a 10 miler on the 24th which I still have plans to run and then would like to cut down dramatically on my running.

I may start the oral steroid this week…even though I generally anti meds, but I feel like in this case it is necessary.

I can’t

My relationship with my boss is toxic – I just had yet another gritted teeth confrontation with her (which I initiated) that according to my Fitbit spiked my blood pressure 30 points.

So many surveys say that people leave jobs due to their supervisors (in this case she’s a Dean) and she is certainly top of the list (even above long hours and a joke of a salary). She is single handedly making me reconsider staying in higher education altogether.

I’ve recently been losing sleep over my growing frustrations with her. Last night I was up between 3-6am. A few weeks back I wasn’t able to fall asleep until 4am two night in a row.

In the middle of the night I keep notes in my phone trying to get my concerns out of my head. I hate that I feel like a broken record to T and those close to me about work.

The DC Metro search for something “higher education adjacent” in the private sector is on. If you know of any good companies please send me your recommendations. For the sake of self preservation I need to end this toxic relationship this summer.

Footloose – err Pain

I’m headed back to the podiatrist on Monday. My cortisone shot definitely wore off 2+ weeks ago (aka right before my half marathon, but I did have 2 months of relief).

More concerning has been the top of my OTHER foot. I have had searing pain on the top of my left foot near my 3 little toes. I had MINOR bouts of pain on either foot like this due to major treadmill mileage, but I haven’t really been using treadmills lately. The “good” news is that the pain is no more intense after a run, so foolishly I’m still running since I have a 10 miler on the 24th.

Tech Revolt

All of my running technology is on the fritz.

My 2 year old Fitbit isn’t holding a charge for long/having trouble charging.

My decade old iPod mini (with click wheel) is acting up after yesterday’s wet run and I half broke the armband case trying to get it out due to said hiccup.

My “new” Garmin (it’s an older model, but was new when I got it for Christmas) is also losing its charge quickly. I’m positive it’s not going to hold a charge through my 20 miler and I’m anxious about the marathon (already debating running the first 5 miles without turning it on).

Do I need to invest in new tech, yes. But these need to get me through the next 3.5 weeks. I can’t change shit up this late in the game and all my extra monies are going toward Ireland funsies.

Regardless I feel like I’m on the brink of a marathon meltdown (which isn’t totally surprising)…

People are THE worst sometimes

Working with.
Working for.
Those that work for you.

Weeks like this make me wish I was a farmer or worked with the interwebs or SOMETHING that wasn’t living and breathing people who exist at times just to make my life harder.

#endrant

+/- of the Week

-T has been out of town for work all week

+he gets back this afternoon

+I’ve been able to/made time to work out and eat well all week

-valve behind toilet started leaking Monday

+managed the leak with plastic wrap and emptying a large bowl until maintenance could come yesterday morning

-8am yesterday: value breaks off in maintenance man’s hand and water geysers

+get the water shut off and the flood under control and using every towel in my apartment, including beach towels to soak up water

-maintenance man goes to get parts and my idiot upstairs neighbors decides in those 15 minutes he’s gone to take a shower/came down to the basement and apparently turned the water back on

-by myself trying my best to keep the water spewing from the broke value/pipe under control.

+maintenance man comes back and shuts the water off

-start using tshirts to soak up water since I’m out of towels

+get everything fixed and sopped up. Maintenance man brings a pro grade fan to dry the carpet that has some minor water overflow

+Maintenance man and I wring out all the soaked towels/shirts and leave in the tub for me to deal with afterwork

-Come home from work to do a shit ton a laundry, start 2 loads of towels/tshirts to come back and find the water for the washers was still off and I wasted $$ and time.

-drag wet/detergent covered loads to building next door’s laundry room. Only one washer is working. Spend the next 4 hours and $20 doing laundry

Moral of the story: days like yesterday really make me miss my dad. Tomorrow would have been his 66th birthday, but it’s been almost 8 years since he’s passed. Even if my dad would have been alive he couldn’t have physically helped since he prob wouldn’t be living near me, however just talking to him always calmed me down and make me feel less upset. I was able to talk to T and that helped some. I told T about how all of the chaos of the day really made me miss my dad and how I could call him anytime. T sweetly reminded me that he’s always there for me to call. I still miss my Dad terribly, but T was very sweet and comforting.

Selfie #adulting

My bridesmaid dress for this weekend.

I blindly guessed at my size since I was in between like 3 sizes based on my measurements and hoped for the best since I wasn’t able to try the actual dress on.

I got the dress the first weekend in Sept and was nervous about trying it on. A few weeks later I put it on, but it was a little snug at the waist, but almost a touch big everywhere else. Thankfully my boobs aren’t spilling out like my bridesmaid dress 2 years ago.

I’ve been working hard the past month despite not seeing the scale move (until this morning – 2 lbs down). I put the dress on last night and it fits better.

To ensure that I feel comfortable I’m doing a Dr. Oz 3 day juice/smoothie cleanse again and I plan on getting a new pair of industrial strength spanx!

T is coming up with me as my date for the wedding and I just want to look and feel my best.

2 truths and a lie

This Weekend….

I cried while trying (for 30 minutes) to put my front wheel back on my bike before my test run of the tri course and also cried while riding because the course confused me until I noticed last year’s spray painted markers.
I had an amazing time camping with T and another couple. It was fun cooking in the fire pit, playing games, not being attached to technology, and snuggling in a tent.
I managed to go hiking and kayaking without bruising myself severely.

(check my previous post to see which was the lie)