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WIW

Today: 189.4

Last Week: 189.6

I’ll talk a small change – had a retreat this weekend with students that made eating junk easy, but I’m still holding strong on the Insanity train and feeling good about it.

Also I’m still trying to process the HIMYM series finale – lots of big gross tears have been had the past 36 hours

WIW

Today: 189.6

Last week: 191.6

It is a HUGE relief to be out of the 190s (even if just back there briefly). I vividly remember getting out of the 190s back when I started in journey in 2010. It was SUCH a huge accomplishment and it meant so much to me. Having a healthy lifestyle and feeling good about my body still means so much to me, but it’s something that I must CHOOSE to make a priority every day. 

I was talking with one of my best friends last night who struggles with keeping weight off as well. We were both commiserating about letting 10 pounds creep on over the past few months. It’s hard work to lose weight, especially when you are fighting your genes, body type, and years of bad habits. My friend and I have both been at places where we were really happy and confident about our body and weights, so why did we just let it slip away? For me I was tired. Tired of making time to work out 5 days a week, tired of saying no to indulgences. I was at a great weight and fitness so I got lax and wanted a break. In the journey of weight loss and weight maintenance I know just like my body which needs “rest days” I need to give my diet “rest days” too to avoid burnout. It’s finding that balance that is hard. Weight loss is both mental and physical. I remember my beloved former spin instructor would ALWAYS say during the warm up that we had “get our mind right” – we had to be prepared to work and fight.

My mind is right and my body is ready.  

WIW – This is unacceptable

Today: 191.6

out of control.

I hated 90% of the pictures taken of me this weekend. I feel fat and slow. I’m “fine” with my half marathon time, but carrying around 10lbs more than the last few races I’ve done didn’t help. Meanwhile yesterday marked 2 years since I ran the LA marathon and was in the best shape of my life and weighed ~175 pounds. 

I hate how lax I am. I hate how much I want to keep my weight under control and yet I feel so out of control sometimes. 

My appetite is currently sidelined by a cold and I hope next week to reboot INSANITY. Next week I’ll also hear if I got into to NYC Marathon – which both excites and terrifies me. 

March 21st is 2 days away. It marks the equinox and the start of spring. It is also the 1st day of the astrological year. AKA sounds like a great place to start with a clean slate and see how much progress I can make by the start of summer! 

::I believe in a sound mind, a sound body, and a spirit that is not afraid::

WIW

Today: 185.2

That was actually what the scale said on Nov 6th as well – which is my last WIW I posted. 

Things have been a bit of a roller coaster lately. At moment I haven’t had much of an appetite and my T25 is helping to keep me sane. 

I am prepared to fight to get down to 170s, I want to be there SO bad.