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WIW

182.4

Down about 2 pounds from last week. In part to stepping up my running/working out, in part to the Shakeology 7 day challenge, but mostly in part to still being floored that a new awesome guy I recently met/ have gone out with lost his dad at the Navy Yard shooting. 

Refocusing

Weight Today: 187.0

I have fallen off the wagon since early July. Thankfully I’ve only put on about 4 pounds in that time period, but I feel soft and weak. I’m also 12 lbs heavier than my lowest weight (LA Marathon, March 2012) which really frustrates me.

I need to get back to where I was and remember where I still want to go. 

Despite it being a holiday weekend I have a pretty quiet schedule so I hope to use this weekend to start getting back on track. 

  • I miss being the girl who can run 5 miles without thinking about it.
  • I miss being the girl had amazing will power against sweets and junk.
  • I miss being the girl who didn’t care about her clothes because she felt confident in everything she wore
  • I miss being the girl who could comfortably fit in all the clothes in her closet
  • I miss being the girl that motivated others to be fit and healthy
  • I miss being the girl who was in control on her life 

I’m feeling really inspired and hopeful.

Reconnected with a good source of encouragement last night and did a lot of reflecting. Came into work today to see a gchat I missed on Friday that had a link of inspirational thoughts included these two. 

I feel like things and life are finally starting to make sense again. 

I also faced my fears and got on the scale 186.6 – up 2 pounds, which is fine after nearly a 2 week hiatus from working out. Back at it tonight. 

Back in skinny pants

I’m on day 44 of INSANITY and I love to hate it and hate to love it. 

I’ve also been eating REALLY well the past few weeks.

My body looks and feels different, DESPITE what the scale says (still sitting pretty at 185.2).

Today I was feeling good and thought I’d trying to pull on a pair of pants that I haven’t worn in about a year due to tons’o muffin top. However I put them on and they look good. They are still a smidge snug, but more so that I can feel it rather that see it. 

WIN!

Body RAGE

I HATE NUMBERS

I hate the scale. I hate measurements.

I’ve been on Paleo and been pretty strict about it for the past MONTH, however my body refuses to lose weight or inches. 

I’m so mad, so mad. I want these 10 extra pounds I’ve been carrying the last couple of months GONE and ideally an additional 15 pounds past that. 

I keep fighting the urge to say FUCK IT, WHY BOTHER. I’m trying to stay strong, but my resolve is really getting tested.