Last Week: 182.0
This Week: 180.2
Change: -1.3
I’m happy the scale is moving the right direction, but I really need to get out of this losing and gaining the same 7 pounds cycle. I hope I can see the 170s before my half on Sunday – it would be a nice little confidence boost. My lowest weight thus far has been 175 and I need to get back down there and then start to losing “new weight.”
WHY?!?!
Lately I have been running more than I have been in MONTHS and eating pretty well, yet I’ve been losing and gaining these 5 pounds for weeks upon weeks. I’m very frustrated.
JUST yesterday I was thinking about how I heard that Cheeburger Cheeburger has amazing french fries and I thought, I’ve lived here 3 years and never been there. Because I really try hard to not eat junk and yet here I am doing my damnedest to exercise and eat well and I’m yo-yoing. Seriously it makes me want to go each french fries and cheeseburgers until I start crying.
Don’t worry I’m not going to, but there is that little fat devil on my shoulder that still whispers these ideas. Luckily I listen more to my svelte angel. Plus *hopefully* my new Brooks running shoes will be delivered today and I am pound out my feelings on some pavement later.
UPDATE: As a friend pointed out – yes I blogged about how it’s not about numbers, it’s about how I feel. And I feel good. I feel the same as 2 weeks ago, not 5 pounds heavier. Numbers aren’t everything….numbers AREN’T everything…
Since my dash has been rather quiet (I blame spring break – are that many of you college students? I may poll this when you all get back. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE college students – I’ve made a career out of working at a college with you, but it’s weird I’d never in a million years go into graphic detail about my fitness and body with them like I do with you all).
Anyway I was reading through my archive and came across these gems:
· I have yet to hit my 10 miles a week yet…I also need to hit more 4 day work out weeks, as opposed to 3 day work out weeks – even thought 3 days is better than 0 days. However my spare tire of a stomach isn’t gonna just fall off by itself. (February 9, 2010)
· Even my jeans are getting big and I’m not a belt wearer, but I may have to be. It’s exciting to start to say goodbye to “fat pants” and hello to “less fat pants.” (March 19, 2010)
· I just tweeted that “I’m gonna make the track my bitch this afternoon.” I talk a big game, but I think I’ll still end up getting bitch slapped by the track today. (April 16, 2010)
I did find this from one of my first entries to be interesting:
· Let’s just say I’m about 10 pounds heavier than I normally am or 25 pounds heavier than when I last felt “good about myself” or 50 pounds from what I’d consider my perfect weight (which would make me a size 10 pants or M shirt, but I’m more than okay with that. I’m 5’9 and have a decent frame so I have no plans to ever be a single digit in pants). (January 11, 2010)
I’m nearly down 50 pounds from when I wrote this. I feel great, I don’t feel perfect, but I feel great. I’m proud to be the weight I am at, but I honestly think I was too afraid to admit that at that time I really needed to lost 65-70 pounds. When it’s all said and done (weight loss wise, not work wise because the work never stops) it will be crazy to think I HAD 65-70 pounds to lose, but I did. I have ~25 to go. I’m not shy to admit it anymore. And I also do believe that I am totally capable of wearing single digit pants – my frame isn’t as big as I thought – it was the fat on it that was the problem.
My original weight loss blog was on blogger just for me and in May 2010 I joined the FITBLR community. This community has become a second home, but at first it was a bitter pill to swallow at times:
· I’m still not sure if reading other fitblrs is inspiring or depressing. I have been eating better and working out more than I ever have and my weight is SLOOOOOOWLY coming off. I’ve been at it since January and am only down 22 pounds. I see many of you who started weeks or months after me and have shed more than me….Sometimes it’s hard to be happy when all of you are reaching your goals faster than me, but mark my words fast or slow I’m gonna reach mine too! (May, 20, 2010)
Holler. I saw a lower number yesterday, but that’s what I get for sneaking a peak and then eating a ginormous cupcake yesterday.
Either way I’m loving seeing a loss.
Once I hit my GW of 168 I’m getting a Garmin. However do I get the forerunner 305 OR the 405. Decisions, Decisions. I still have plenty of time for figure it out, but it’s still worth investigating. THOUGHTS?
Seriously I saw this number yesterday and was like kicking the air with excitement and I’m thrilled I saw it this morning too. I F*CKING WORKED for this loss, like I’ve never worked before. I had something to prove to myself and I’m so proud of myself.
It’s beautiful to be back in the 170s and not far off from my LW of this journey (175). I love getting closer and closer to a “healthy” BMI (171). Goal Weight and Ultimate Goal Weight, I got my sight set on you!
Eating Right + Exercise = Weight Loss. It’s as simple as that.
Last week: 182.8
This week 183.2
GAIN GAIN GAIN – what else is new.
I’m working on a post outlining my hopeful solutions to this terrible cycle I am in. Hope to post it later today.
I really don’t know what is up with my body, because I feel freaking GREAT. I see my body looking better and better. My running is coming back to me easier and easier.
They are just numbers. They do not define me.
I haven’t fully hit the ground running, but I’m taking steps. I’m happy to see a loss and hope to see 170s verrrry soon.
Who doesn’t love a gain once you get back on the gym train! 1.4 pounds since MONDAY, I hope it’s water weight. I’m getting my period this week plus I’m a month into taking birth control which has has wreaked havoc on my body. I need some normalcy with my body STAT.
A picture is truly worth 1,000 words.
The green line is my “trend” weight and it for nearly the first time it is lower than my actual weight. I find comfort in this line. The past few weeks have been bumpy, but my body knows what’s up.