Month: April 2018

Yesterday I got my first Le Tote box.

The only stinker was the dark blue top, a little too tight. I liked the striped shirt tucked in as styled in the pic better (I never tuck in shirts). I like the pants, but as much as I’ve always gravitated to loose, I really want to challenge myself to try more slim/skinny pants. The dress is cute, but a touch short #longlegproblems!

I plan to wear the three pieces that fit at least once before returning the box for another and try and pick some more fitted pants.

If you want a free box use my code: You can click the link above, but the address is: https://letote.com/freetote/JENNIFER17046

How your next meal could fight depression and stress – CNN

How your next meal could fight depression and stress – CNN

I totally see the link in my own life when it comes to mental health and food choices (which impacts weight). When I’m heavier I feel like it a physical beacon trying to tell the world that I’m not in a good place right now. Which has been why trying to explain my current weight loss and overall feeling of good a little complicated, but worth trying to explain to some folks.

Your Body is a Wonderland

I have 2 mini posts wrapped into one here. 

First: Last night I decided to try on a bunch of dresses in my closet since I have a few events coming up that I need to dress up for. I was BLOWN away by how different these dresses were looking on me. It’s fascinating to see how losing weight through diet first and mainly weightlifting has changed my body as opposed to losing weigh primarily through running and better nutrition.  I even zipped up 2 “Goal” Dresses (including that black and white dress from 2012 posted in this photo collage from a few weeks back). I’m not quite ready to wear them in public, but it’s becoming within reach.

Second: I had a work event this morning where I saw a TON of work people that I haven’t seen in a while, a few folks (with whom I have good relationship/friendships with) commented on how svelte I was looking. It made me feel good and I could see that they were happy that I was so happy. Since I’ve only been working here for ~20 months, most people saw me at some major emotional/mental/physical lows. So it’s great that they are getting to see a me I once was and even better than ever! 

WW Weigh In

I’m down 2 pounds this week! 

I have been killing the Weigh Watchers game since New Years (down 16.2 since then and counting)  and I feel like my WW leader is apathetic. I hit my 10% loss threshold last week and did not even get a sticker (or a charm) WTF. I’m so close to 170s and she didn’t even mention it. I like her as a person, but I don’t think she’s the most enthusiastic WW leader – I’ve responded more positively to subs when they’ve covered.

I picked up a call ahead Dunkin’ Donuts order for students near campus on my way in and meant to order myself an iced coffee while I was in there. I completely forgot until I got to campus and dropped things off, which was super upsetting because I haven’t had DD in weeks. Well I couldn’t find a parking spot so I thought that was a sign to go back and get the coffee I was dreaming about especially since I only have gotten six hours of sleep over the last two days!

Le Tote

Since I’m swimming in most of my clothes and I’m 0.5 away from a new “decade” on the scale, I treated myself to try a Le Tote box – it’s a subscription clothing rental company (and you can purchase the items to keep). I want to see this new body I have, but I’m not ready to commit to buying too many new items yet.

If you are interested I have a promo code for a FREE tote for you (and I get $25 in credit when you finish your first month):

https://letote.com/freetote/JENNIFER17046

THIS IS NOT AN AD, it’s just me sharing – I get my first box this weekend and will let folks know what I think. 

A-Ha Moment via text

Friend: How is life? Haven’t talked in awhile

Me: I’m pretty great. Work is really busy, but going very well. T and I are better than we’ve been in a while. Social life, fitness, and finances are all on point. I will gladly relish in this high for the moment.

Friend: That’s so good!!!! You def deserve some good/chill times. I feel like the last half of last year and early this year weren’t your most fun.

Me: My life is always feast or famine. Mar-Sept ‘17 were really rough, I’m glad it’s behind me.

Me: This week in April was also particularly traumatizing in 2013. I feel like at least lows of last year I addressed/dealt with so I don’t have the same level of PTSD as I do with my 2013 rough patch.

Friend: Which was 2013? Ya learning to deal is one of my top life lessons in the past couple years.

Me: When my supervisee had her baby 2 weeks early and a week later my boss announced she was leaving just as I reached the one year mark on the job, all while facing turning 30 that Aug.

Friend: Ooh yes and then you [REDACTED]. Healthy times

Me: Most of my stress and trauma as adult is from work, but that’s because I use work as a poor coping mechanism for my mom’s alcoholism :::A-HA:::

I’m feeling very self aware at the moment and being able to verbalize it to others helps. Although this friend knows all too well about my lows, but still being able to say most of the “bad stuff” in my life is work related and I’m learning how trival work is at the end of the day. It’s a job, as an educator and administrator its an important job, but it’s still just a job. I can’t let a job own me.

Choices

I’ve been getting into a really good workout routine the since the start of the year and I’ve really held it sacred because summer is my peak work season and I know I won’t be able to get to nearly as many classes.

Yesterday a last minute meeting got put together that I got invited to through another colleague with the University President and some other university leadership to talk about student veterans (which supporting their success and advising their student group is part of my role).

Is it good/bad that my first thought was 5p-6p on Thursday, umm no I have Body Pump and Combat express. My second thought was after business hours, come on.

However I realize what an important opportunity this is to help further advocate for student veteran success in front of university leadership. So I’m staying late and missing class this week, but it’s for a good reason.

I will be working a half day Friday because I have an event that requires me to be here at 7:30am in Friday so between an early day following a late night, I’ll starting my weekend early!