So when I restarted this weight loss effort for the umpteenth time on 12/28/17 at 196.5 lbs I set a weight goal of 179. It seemed far away, but more realistic than my actual goal weight of ~168.

Well week by week, pound by pound, small change by small change I’m down the 17.5+ pounds I set out to achieve. Just look at the weight loss chart! With all goals, I will enjoy this achievement, but I have set a new goal of 165!

When I first started my weight loss efforts at 222.6 lbs in 2010 my goal weight was 168 and my ultimately goal weight was 155. I think 165 is a realistic and happy medium in terms of BMI, body fat percentage, maintenance, etc.

I’d love to hit the 160s by my 35th Birthday on August 4th!

Let’s do this!

So many measurements! Yesterday I did my end of month weigh in and measurements. Solid progress. Then jumped on the scale today for my WIW 

Last week: 179.9 (I was holding steady there for a little while) 

This week: 178.7 

Change : -1.2

This baby is taking years off my life due to stress, granted he’s my whole world and enriches my life every day. 

However for the past 3 weeks or so he’s essentially been on a hunger strike. Refusing to eat any type of dog food. T and I could certainly tell he’s lost weight but today at the vet I was horrified to see he went from 7.7lbs just about 6 lbs. The vet was alarmed too. 

Fred’s had a lot of bloodwork the past few months, but that doesn’t always tell the full story. Fred had an insatiable appetite for most of Feb and Mar even waking us up crying for food. Now for most of April the pendulum swung the other way so we’re readjusting his meds again. 

The good news is the vet took Fred off prescription food because he’s more interested in him eating period. Thank goodness between a mix of wet and dry non-prescription food Fred ate today. I moved his bed into the kitchen while I telework because I wanted to keep an eye on him. Here’s hoping he will continue eating and that we finally get the med dosage right. 

Anyone know where I can donate 3 different bags of nearly full expensive prescription dog food?

WORK RAGE

Some of my work partners are just terrible and frustrating. Some of the problem children from last year WHO I BLAMED MYSELF FOR UPSETTING/BEING DIFFICULT are upset and difficult again this year, despite SO MUCH COMMUNICATION and advanced planning.

Last year I was in year one of my job and an office of one (due to improper staffing and turnover). I was working SO HARD, but I knew not at the level I could/would want to be at, but I was doing better than most would think is humanly possible. I took on so much stress and beat myself up so hard for “disappointing” and “letting people down.” So much so that it really spiked my Workaholic tendencies which really came to a head last summer and led me to go to counseling and ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics).

Yet here were are a year later, I have a team. We are doing great work. We are cleaning up the mess of a department I inherited and creating systems, protocols, communication channels and communication timelines. And yet it’s not good enough and I’m essentially getting attacked and criticized via email and to my face.

Thankfully, only now I can finally see it’s THEIR PROBLEM. They don’t think or care about my department’s work until May and ignored meeting invites and emails over the past several months. We have regular partner planning meetings – which THEY tell us who should sit on it. Not my problem if their designee is not going, not reporting back, or you aren’t asking for an update.

YOUR PROBLEM IS NOT MY PROBLEM.  AND HOW DARE THEY TRY AND SAY OTHERWISE. 

I am so triggered, but I am naming it and trying to breathe. I hope I can let it go and not let it haunt me all day.

Well instead of wallowing after my cancelled Raleigh trip I decided to spend yesterday and today being productive (and burning a lot of calories outside). Excited to see my Impatiens take root and flourish!

*a sunburnt tramp stamp is an unfortunate consequence of being an old millennial homeowner haha. Next time I’ll remember to apply my sunscreen there too!

Travel Fail

Greetings from hour two at Dulles airport waiting on my flight to Raleigh.

I planned a secret trip to surprise my good friend A for her birthday. Originally I thought I had my urban hiking class this week and so I wasn’t going to be able to partake in birthday activities but when I realized I didn’t have class I coordinated with some of my friends who were planning to go down to Raleigh. They all were leaving yesterday and driving down but I couldn’t make it so I booked a one-way flight for this morning and then the plan is to drive back with the girls tomorrow. I’m just annoyed because it was an early morning and I was hoping to spend the whole day with them today.

I left my house at 6:40 this morning to take a lyft to the airport and was running early for my first time ever but my 8:25 flight keeps getting delayed due to fog so I’m looking at a 10:45 departure time. The flight itself is just over an hour and I’m looking at 2 ½ hours worth of delay so stupid!!! Uggghhhh.

I’m currently voice to texting this post as I’m power walking in airport getting steps in! I also plan to whip out my hair straightener in the bathroom and do my hair since it looks like I will have to meet folks at lunch straight from the airport as opposed to stopping at my friends place first.

I was so excited about this fun surprise and making the decision to book a one-way flight but ultimately it would’ve been faster to drive down there at this point. Boo hissssss

UPDATE: after 3 hours at the airport my flight got cancelled and they wouldn’t have been able to rebook me until tonight so I demanded a refund and I’m heading home. FaceTimed with the birthday girl to deliver the sad news ?