I’m getting a MUCH needed massage after work today!
Today is also my beloved supervisee’s first day back after maternity leave – she is truly my right hand and I’m so happy to have her back.
I hope I can begin to relax and my stress levels can lower.
Thanks for all the notes and messages after my post last week. I’ve had a really hard 8 weeks with the last 4 being almost unbearable at times. I am so passionate about my work and to work with others who are not is challenging. I’ve also had my right hand at work on maternity leave these past 10 weeks – I didn’t realize just how much a of a team we were until she was gone. Thankfully she’ll be back 2 weeks from today!
I’ve had some really low points lately, but thanks to my friends (both near and far) and a much needed weekend of doing only things I wanted to do (pedicure, visits with friends, dvr, sleeping, yoga, insanity workout, church and some MAJOR cleaning/organizing/tossing) I am in a much better place. I still a ways to get back to where I was (or better), but I’m optimistic
Meg Jay: Why 30 is not the new 20
This Ted Talk was EXACTLY what I needed hear.
-IDENTITY CAPITAL
-MUSICAL CHAIRS OF LOVE
They physically moved her bones. They moved her collar bone lower. I hope stuff like this makes girls realize how ridiculous the media is.
I sometimes really hate modern technology and the people who think these “cover girls” really exist.
I try to focus on who I am rather than who I’m not.
This past Sunday was the final week of the “Biggest Loser” series at the church I’ve been going to. It’s cool that the 4 weeks I’ve been were the 4 weeks of the series.
As usual – I can relate this sermon to all aspects of my life, including my daily journey to health and fitness.
The pastor started with a video clip from the movie “The Potential Inside” it is about cycling and racing. It definitely was a cheesy-Christian type movie, yet it intrigued me enough to track it down on Netflix to add to my queue. Two memorable quotes from the video clip:
The pastor referred to guilt as the twinge of knowing you crossed the line. However we shouldn’t internalize it forever, don’t let it suck you in. Guilt can eat you alive if you don’t release yourself from a sense of inferiority. He suggested to come face to face with what you feel guilty about. "DON’T LIE TO YOURSELF, WRITE IT OR SAY IT OUT LOUD" (Hence why I keep a food and fitness log and even this tumblr).
Accept that you did what’s done and either own up to it or seek forgiveness. You should take time to think about, “what did you learn about yourself and to not make the same mistake again.” However he acknowledged that, “It’s human to make mistakes. ADMIT THAT YOU MAKE THEM. Seek forgiveness, learn from it and MOVE ON."
He pastor mostly linked guilt to "confessing” – which is the key to healing
Other quotes
Damn I’m starting to look really good naked again
Get free from fear – don’t let fear hold you back or motivate you. Love yourself and love God. There is no room in love for fear. Love pushes fear out.
I don’t mean to get all “churchy” again, but the pastor’s message this week spoke to me as a person and also to my health and wellness.
I need to just LOVE myself and my life and not let irrational fears have ANY role in my life. I thought the pastor’s point about also not using fear as a motivator was a great one.
I shouldn’t eat healthy or work out because I fear being fat, I should eat healthy and work out because I love myself enough to do what’s best for it.
What a simple, yet powerful way to reframe things.
Successful full week of logging my day to day health related habits
I kicked off logging things on Jan 1 which was a Tuesday, so the picture of my book the week before wasn’t as chock full!
It’s crazy how knowing that before bed I have to write “yes sweets” if I had a cookie/candy/etc makes me NOT want to eat them because I don’t want to write it in my book later. I logged this stuff so regularly in 2010 and 2011, but fell off the wagon in 2012 so it feels good to be back and concretely holding myself accountable!